What happens when we stop performing want and start feeling it. The difference between showing and being.
In this reflection we examine the gap between showing and feeling. There is a difference between wanting something and showing that you want it.
The first is involuntary. It shows up in the body before the mind catches up. The second is learned. Managed. Shaped by what you think desire is supposed to look like.
The gap between them can grow without anyone noticing.
We absorb scripts early. Who initiates. What counts as enough. How bodies should move, sound, respond. These scripts run in the background, shaping what feels permissible before anyone asks what actually feels true.
Performance can become armor. If you perform correctly, rejection feels less personal. The real you stays protected.
But armor blocks in both directions. What keeps hurt out also keeps connection out.
Sometimes desire seems absent when it is actually just blocked. Stress. Distraction. Self-consciousness. Old shame. The body holds history. Past experiences shape what feels safe.
The path forward might not be more effort. It might be more gentleness.
Slowing down feels counterintuitive. Culture treats intensity as proof of passion. But slowing down can reveal what rushing obscures. What the body actually wants versus what it has learned to perform.
Real desire does not always look like the movies. It can be quieter. Stranger. More specific. It does not need an audience.
The performance falls away when there is nothing left to prove.
The question is not how to want more. The question is how to notice what is already wanted.
Without editing. Without performing. Just the feeling itself, allowed to exist.
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